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June 30

   There have probably been times when I thought about leaving this relationship, and searching for someone more loving, or suitable.
   Some days what I am hoping for from my SO, and what I get, seem miles apart. I wonder if they really love me, or are just using me, or putting up with me until they find someone better.
   Is it really my partner who is falling short during such times however? Maybe I'm relying on them for good feelings that need to come more from inside me.
   There are many joys I already give myself. When I look outside and it's a beautiful day, I can be happy about it on my own. When I accomplish something difficult, I'm able to feel the joy of achievement, without waiting for someone else to give me the go-ahead.
   If I look closely enough, I'll probably find that the times I need signs of love and caring most from my SO, are the times when I'm giving myself the same things the least.

Just for Today
   Today, I'll look at the ways I feel unloved or uncared for by my SO, and see if I've been treating myself even worse than I think they have.
   The more I treat myself with love and caring, the more I'll likely see my partner in a new way - someone just like me, who's still learning to love themself as well as others.

The real voyage of discovery consists not in seeking new landscapes, but in having new eyes. - Marcel Proust

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